As I sit alone in my room and stare at a boutonnière from my brother's wedding, I....I'm scared; fearful of the unpredictability of the future. The uncertainty that it holds. All I can think about is if my life will become as good as my brother who got married. Will I find a boyfriend? Will I get a steady job or career? Will I find happiness in living? So far, living is far too lonely while the thought of death is comforting.
I want to know what the future holds so that I can decide for myself if it is worth going on. I fear my life when I should just enjoy it. I can't crave something if I don't take pleasure in it. I guess the
Why am I so happy?
There isn't anything to be happy about in my life;
I don't have a significant other, I feel like I don't have any friends,
Nothing in my life seems to be going right.
So why am I happy......content with right now?
Could it be the sun bathing me with it's warmth,
The way I look at nature and see it so radiant, and beautiful?
I don't understand, yet there is something inside of me that grasps me and tells me
That everything is fine, and good, and....happy.
What is a guy to do when this happens, because moments like this are rare to me.
Am I to just 'play' along with it, or maybe work towards other good things, or po
This, my loneliness.
This enchantment that lingers over me.
All I wish is for it to be broken.
Broken by someone, anyone willing to hold onto me.
But as the days flow by, I feel it getting stronger.
Entrapping me into its grasp, unable to free myself.
This feeling that I grow tired of,
Will eventually become my grave.
Unless someone is willing to fight for me,
Someone that would want to see me for another day.
Yet, I fear that will never happen,
But the only thing keeping me here is hope.
I don't know if this hope is false or not,
But I must have the patience to find out.
If I don't, I wouldn't be able to know what could've been
As I sit alone in my room and stare at a boutonnière from my brother's wedding, I....I'm scared; fearful of the unpredictability of the future. The uncertainty that it holds. All I can think about is if my life will become as good as my brother who got married. Will I find a boyfriend? Will I get a steady job or career? Will I find happiness in living? So far, living is far too lonely while the thought of death is comforting.
I want to know what the future holds so that I can decide for myself if it is worth going on. I fear my life when I should just enjoy it. I can't crave something if I don't take pleasure in it. I guess the
Why am I so happy?
There isn't anything to be happy about in my life;
I don't have a significant other, I feel like I don't have any friends,
Nothing in my life seems to be going right.
So why am I happy......content with right now?
Could it be the sun bathing me with it's warmth,
The way I look at nature and see it so radiant, and beautiful?
I don't understand, yet there is something inside of me that grasps me and tells me
That everything is fine, and good, and....happy.
What is a guy to do when this happens, because moments like this are rare to me.
Am I to just 'play' along with it, or maybe work towards other good things, or po
beauty and the beast mxa by gothicrukia, literature
Literature
beauty and the beast mxa
beauty and the beast (merlinxarhtur)
Ok I don't own anything alright! I wish I did. Ok this my friends is my first yaoi
so no flagging ok! i deserve credit I worked hard
Merlin was really peeved off with the prince yet again. He was promised a day off today but then the prince came
barging into his small room and laughed evilly "Merlin get your lazy ass out of bed, we are going hunting"
"but Arthur you promised me a day off today" Merlin whined.
"Yeah a day off from chores I didn't say a day off from hunting did I?" Arthur questioned 'ha ive got you now' Arthur thought
Merlin sighed "no sire you didn't"
Merlin seen no point in argui
HA If only I was good at drawing or making my own fanfiction. I just love getting the updates and seeing other people's work, I'm facinated by them. I don't know if I ever make something to submit, but who knows.